| I wanna get freeeee I wanna get freeeeee |
[Sep. 9th, 2003|03:44 pm] |
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Yeh so I'm cheating on hiatus again, but you are all so missing me anyways, and I couldn't bear the torture I've been putting you through.
Yesterday was moderately interesting. I got in the car and mom said I had a private lesson with Marla + Peter, hurrah! They are my friggin saviors, I would suck even more if I didn't have them. Anyways so they were definately helpful, and they bicker a lot and it's funny. They totally pointed me in the right direction with my Romeo and Juliet monologue though. Just by reading it like they told me to I'm almost crying. Even if I totally bomb this audition it's still a great monologue to have. I found out in theatre that Amanda's doing the same one as me. Errgg, I hate sharing them.
Anyways, it feels so lame I'm putting myself through the horror of auditioning when I'm really only doing it for my mom. She wants me to get in so much more than I do. I told her I'm content with being a rock and she said "no. you can't be a rock, you have to be something where I can see you act." So that's helpful. Now not only do I have all of my own pressure I have to try harder so that she's not dissapointed in me. Harumph.
My Frida icon is better than you.
Oh yeah then I babysat Renne yesterday and watched Aristocats haha. Best Disney movie.
Ooh Dogma on tv! We hearts it!
Claire's coming over later to work on her monologue. I highly doubt I'll be much help but it's an excuse to chizzle fo' shizzle. |
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[Jun. 14th, 2003|05:51 pm] |
aww cute icon--made my _amberwaves.
blaaah bored |
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[Jun. 13th, 2003|03:55 pm] |
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New icon..tada! |
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| I don't believe I went too far |
[Jun. 12th, 2003|02:43 pm] |
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| | Waitress<--->Tori Amos | ] |
I fixed up this journal,, decided I should use it if I've got it. Backround is Sabrina Ward Harrison's various paintings...NOT MINE, don't want people to think I'm claiming them as mine. I wish I made them though. Ha. Anyways. Went to Claire's last night. Dressed up in weird clothes and listened to trippy music. Hung out with Tommy at like 2 in la manana. It was fun ;D. I always forget how cool Tommy is...I'm so glad to have him! Anyways yes. Oh yeah Claire made me watch this Tori Amos video with Adrien Brody in it and it was crazy man. It grossed me out and Brody can rarely do that maha.
and i'm so sad
like a good book
i can't put this
day back
a sorta fairytale
Urg I really want to do theatre. It should not be so complicated. I shouldn't have to have an agent to do a play. I miss the stage. I haven't been on it in a very long time. Blaaah.
Starks in Italy. Damnit. I hope she's having fun!! ;D |
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| Hold on to nothing, as fast as you can |
[May. 4th, 2003|04:19 pm] |
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| | Past the Mission<--->Tori Amos | ] |
Haven't used this journal in awhile.
Ok, so I stopped panicking about Vietnam report. Went to library and rented 6 tapes on it. Watched one and 1/4 of them. Got one page of report done. Taking break. I'm playing Tori Amos really loud and I guarauntee you my brothers gonna throw a fit. Haha. I can't wait for this year to be over. It's been so long, I really need vacation. It will be so amazing to get to go to Newport again this summer. I didn't want to at first but now I really do. I love the beach. I miss the beach. Maybe I will be able to go visit Dee Ann for part of it. I love her, and haven't visited her for years. I think she's going to France this summer though. Bad idea on her part if she is...France not very friendly right now eh? I think I have ADD or something. I can't pay attention to anything. I feel very fat today. I want to work out, or go running or something. Goddamn report. Oh yeah I'm not going to Sabrina Ward Harrison's class...I just got my hopes up and what a surprise! I was let down. Hm thats never happened before. I wish I didn't have this report hanging over my head. I should have done the research a long time ago. I can't sit still and watch a movie when I feel fat like this. I know thats weird, but I cant heh. I have a lot in me right now but I'm having trouble expressing it.
I'm starting to feel bad that I have no feelings at all for Lindsay. I mean, is it terrible that I don't think anything at all of her? After we were friends for so long I don't feel a damn pang of pity on her when shes sad or that I don't miss her, and I'm actually afraid that she'll want to be my friend again. I feel so hateful. But I am so over her that it scares me. Whatever...moving on is a good thing.
I feel so overwhelmed with everything...oh my god its only going to get worse.
AH i need to be challenged. I have strength! Give me the face of adversity to show you! Let me be brave! Let me prove something to myself! I don't even take myself seriously. My life feels so grey.
"Stay a baby as long as you can. You have plenty of time for the rest of it."
-Peter, my acting coach |
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[Mar. 24th, 2003|03:48 pm] |
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I thought I would let everyone know that I'm not going to update for awhile. Close friends of mine and not so close friends have decided to use this website as a weapon...so if any of you had Bitch_cricket on your friends list shes deleted it. and i'll be back soon enough but i'm not gonna yield to all this childish..ness...
well love and peace...keep in touch |
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| When will I begin to live again? |
[Mar. 20th, 2003|09:15 pm] |
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| | Detective<-->No Doubt | ] |
hullo. I can't decide what kind of mood I'm in so this entry should be interesting.
I have been debating it all day (i watched the news for SIX HOURS STRAIGHT! granted, it was mtv news, but very informative none the less, much less biased than, persay, cnn) and I've decided that my opinion towards the war: neutral. It's too much work to hate, either way.
i think its safe to say this now so i will,, I AM SO GLAD TO BE DONE WITH LINDSAY! like when i realized that the drama was all over, this buzzing sense of ecstacy came over me. I am so finished with her bullshit,, and this week I have been happier than I have been in months. So hurrah!!! GOODBYE LINDSAY BABY! have a good life! ha..jealous my ass. ^.~
hOtTaMaLeE616: i got the kewlest composistion book yesterday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
LaNka Elf: OMG NO WAY!
hOtTaMaLeE616: yes way!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hOtTaMaLeE616: it shines!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
LaNka Elf: AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!
hOtTaMaLeE616: its the coolest thing! u would just die if u saw it !!!!!!!!!!!!!
LaNka Elf: would i really!?
LaNka Elf: thats kind of odd
hOtTaMaLeE616: oh welll the glare of it would blind u and hten u would freak out cuz u couldnt see and u would die from hyper ventalation and stuff
LaNka Elf: ooh ok, that makes more sense
hOtTaMaLeE616: yea
man, why is kaitlyn so cool? MAN im going to have fun torturing her next year.
finished bridget jones this morning. so cute. i want Mark Darcy to be my pal.
homework...x.x. |
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[Mar. 19th, 2003|08:54 pm] |
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yrADmss: i dont wanna think about the bad were in a happy place
LaNka Elf: we're on this earth too |
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[Mar. 19th, 2003|08:40 pm] |
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| | MSNBC | ] |
"What world is this? What kingdom?" |
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